My struggles with guilt and shame where Mom and Dad are concerned are based on the fact that those conversations between Mom,Dad and I occurred about nursing homes and promises that were made to them..I realize then and now are different, but still in my head, things were said and promises were made, the fact that I've been married to a military man that took me away from home where I've been an absentee daughter and the sadness of me and my boys missing out on being a big part of their lives and vice versa. I KNOW that something had to be done...that was even MORE confirmed when we started cleaning out their house and finding all we found. I know we..really you there, because again, I wasn't there; tried and worried and worked and struggled and did EVERYTHING you could to try and keep things good, but it got to a point in the road where a major decision had to be made. It was a hard decision,but the right one. Again, this is where my guilt comes in, I wasn't there to help with that move, to "be there" for them...you were, and I'm so thankful for that, but I wasn't and I feel like I should have been..I feel like I let them down..not that I would have done things differently, just that I should have been there too. All things I continue to try and have closure on. I know they are exactly where they need to be and I'm so thankful that they are together and still have each other..I only wish they were together at home 10 years younger, but that is not reality! For me, I think moving closer will help me come to terms with my struggles...I don't know how much time I'll have with them..out of my hands, but I know it will be more than I've been able to have over the last 4 years and for this I am thankful. Love you all and hope to see you soon...Jamie