Jeanie, I'm so sorry you had one of those rough visits. It's a tough situation period and I know what you mean about when you're tired things hitting you hard. Judy is right, you have been our rock in all of this and even a rock has to crumble every now and then.  It's ok to be sad, angry, scared, frustrated, worried and every other emotion out there...the reality of this whole thing is there's just very little good and a whole lot of not so good. Sometimes out of the blue something will remind me of Dad and Mom...sometimes it's a sad memory and I'll find myself getting teary eyed..sometimes it's a memory that makes me smile...I just embrace both and really feel lucky to have had such good parents. I can only hope that mine will feel the same about me when I'm 91.  I do worry about Dad's color...yellow in like jaundice?  Could there be some liver issue along with a kidney issue?  Judy, ask Leisa about if the kidney's are in distress, could it stress the liver...diabetes is so hard on the organs as well...could Dad be in organ failure?   My plan is to come over on Tuesday if Teresa doesn't need back in the house.  I know they are painting again tomorrow and maybe replacing the window in Jerome's room, if so, the rest of the work is exterior.  Let's do make plans...soon, especially now that the weather is starting to be so cool...you all can come help rake and burn leaves! :) That constitutes a party in Kentucky!!!  Love you all,  Jamie