Pat I feel the same way and told Leisa tonight that I'm to the point now that I dread going back. I'm almost afraid to say anything to Mom too because I don't know if she'll yell at me or smile! Leisa just keeps reminding me that it's NOT Mother and that she sees it all the time and we can't take any of it personally. It just kills me to think that I'll never have another "personal" moment with her then! I'm so thankful too for all of you and even more for my faith. God will see me through all of this and all of you too. I don't want to sound "preachy" but I have that faith to fall back on and always want to share that when I have an opportunity. Mother and Dad ares Christian and for that I'm so thankful because I know their life here is limited but not their heavenly one. Mom I'm more concerned for at the moment though. I know in end stage that they just get to the point of not wanting to eat or get up or anything and just lay there wanting to sleep. Mom said she was just so sleepy but said once "I'm not going to be just yet" to me. I asked Leisa too if and/or when that going to bed happens, what will be next. She said that usually pneumonia sets in pretty rapidly because of inactivity. YUCK!!!! I hope we all are preparing ourselves because it's only going to get worse. I love you all though and will be there for any and all that I can be!~ Love to all, Judy