Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Hello Sisters...I'm finally back home, have all the laundry done, mailed out bills, bought groceries, recovered physically and just about mentally and cleaned house yesterday and today!! i'm sorry I haven't written on the blog in awhile...I read it while on vacation, but Jerry's computer is so secure that I couldn't post! Here are my ramblings...this blog is about communicating the facts of Mom and Dad and unfortunately, there are going to be a lot of unhappy facts! It's just the sad, depressing situation that is Mom and Dad. I wish that they were with it mentally..it would be so much easier on us..but in a sad way, it's good that they don't know. Can you imagine Mom's comments about LNC if she had all her faculties...of course if she did, she wouldn't need to be there anyway! I know you feel bad Jeanie about always feeling like you write negative stuff, but it's the facts of the situation. I don't read the blog looking for good...I read for information...and honestly, I don't really expect good, so when there is good, I'm pleasantly surprised. I think the reality is that Mom will have fewer good moments today than yesterday and even fewer good moments tomorrow. If she is end stage like the doctor diagnosed, then this is our reality. I chose to remember Mom and Dad from about 15-20 years ago...older, but still full of life. Mentally, I can't afford to dwell on how they are today, I must just accept it....even if it does suck!! We must be careful not to get caught up in the horribleness of the situation and make sure we continue living our lives to the fullness. If we live long enough, we'll all be there soon enough anyway! I don't question for one second the love that Mom and Dad have for any of us and the love we have for them...the 2 people at LNC are just what's left of the Mom and Dad we all know. The essence of them are with us everyday..the morals, values, ethics they instilled in us! I know it's hard going to visit them..again, it is a sad and depressing thing seeing them like they are, but it's for you and not them really anymore. Keep posting the facts...for those of us so far away, news is news, no matter good or bad. If Mom is slipping away, I pray that she holds on until I can get closer to Jonesboro, but I also know that that might be praying for a miracle. I too am glad I'm not an only child and that there is strength in numbers...6 is a nice strong number!!! I love you all......Jamie
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