Today was a hard for me too about Mom and Dad too.  I cried several times on the phone to Leisa and then to Brittney out of the blue!  I know they probably think I'm nuts but I told Brittney today that as hard as it would be to lose me and how sad it makes me that they would have to go through that, that I would rather that for myself and them than what we have with Mom.  We just all want her to be "here" and in the moment with us where we can tell her that we love her and know she understands but I think those times have passed and any of those should have been said by now!  Mom knew we all loved her though and we all know she loved us dearly.  Some more at one time than another maybe but still love!! I know I disappointed her several times but she always loved me and was proud of me and I never doubted that!  She told me lots of times how proud she was of me and what all I had gone through.  I feel the same about her and Dad too.  Dad will be right behind her when she leaves this earth I think.  It kills me!  I'll be home Saturday and then there asap!  Love to you all!  I can't imagine going through what lies ahead without you all to share it with! Love to all, Judy