I pray the same for you Jamie and there is NOTHING you could do/have done to reverse ANY of this! It absolutely is what it is and we all have to believe that deep down they know how much they love us and we love them. We were so fortunate to have them as parents! You were so special to them though that there is NO way they could forget you! It will be ok!~ You'll be here soon as see for yourself. Maybe you won't think there is much difference. Love to all, Judy