Well, I don't even know where to start! It has been SO long since I was on this site! Why? Life! I've had grandkids and trips and just no time! Happy times have been happening to me! Ryan and I just got back from Madison, Wisconsin via Chicago! It 'was such a good time! We went to the once a year American Girl sale for the Madison Children's Museum! It was fun! Anyway, this morning I went to see Mom and Dad. Dad was sound asleep----as in snoring! It was about 5 minutes after 8! I guess he ate breakfast and then went straight to bed! Mom was sitting up in her wheelchair and looked not the least bit sleepy! Go figure! Anyway Mom kept asking what I was going to do today. I told her that I thought I'd paint my rocker. She says 'paint? what color?' I go 'red'. She says 'that would look great!' I mean like we were actually having a conversation. Of course she asked me the same thing several times. She also asked about my husband and how he was. There was a dog on the tv and she asked if I still liked mine----I'm assuming she meant Annie. Anyway, she looked really alert and good. Her shirt was nasty, but I figure that's where she dropped food on herself at breakfast. Debbie came by and she said Mom was REALLY eating! They've been giving her an appetite stimulus. She said at one point that it looked like it was going to rain. It did. It was kind of that hazy hot summer sky! I got up to get a chair and she said you don't have to go yet. Several things that made me think she was/is doing ok. They came in to change Dad and woke him up. I went back into the room and talked to him for a while. He was still SOOO sleepy. He looked so good. I swear today his skin on his face looked ten times better than mine ever thought about being. He looked really peaceful---not stressed and fighting---nothing like that. He grabbed my hand and held it for a long time. He said he was glad to see me and talked pretty sanely. He said something about where's Mother? I said she's sitting there and is fine. He then heard her laugh and said so. He said something about how hot it had been and asked where's Bruce. He said a few things I couldn't hear/understand, but all in all he was good, too. I asked him about his tobacco and he's still not sure how all that works. Anyway, it was a good visit, but it made me cry. I told Bruce I guess I've lost my game face since I haven't really been down there much lately. I just cried all the time he held my hand and talked to me and then cried coming home. I guess it's just the situation that they're in and the whole thing. It just seemed today to be so sad to me. Medically they're doing fine. Physically they seem to be holding their own. I guess it's just the being stuck there that got me today. It's like they're in a hospital and not going home. I don't know. I'll go back tomorrow or Thursday for sure. I just feel like there ought to be something I could do that would make it better. I am going to try to put together some pics for them of family. I showed Mom Dylan's and Pepper's pics today. I asked her if she'd like some pics and of course she said yes. I don't know if she knew what I was talking about, but I did! I need to check their clothes and see if some are ready for the trash and if they need others and could we brighten the room and make it more homey---that kind of thing. I hate the tv always on the country music video channel---that kind of stuff. Anyway, I was glad to see them today and that they seem to be doing so well health-wise! I'll try to write more often now. I love you all, Jeanie